Today was a frustrating day. Jaxon was cranky and I had an agenda I wanted to keep. Needless to say, I was fighting a battle I wasn't going to win and by the end of the day I was drained. So after dinner, I placed a very tired Jaxon into the bath tub. He was so exhausted but, as soon as, he felt the water he perked up. He was very excited and splashing around, getting everything insight wet. He loves the water! I found myself sitting there watching him as he played enjoying every second. It was the sweetest thing. And then I remembered that the days of him just being a baby, solely dependent on me will not last forever. In fact, each day that passes is a day that I will never get back and they are going by far to fast. It was then that I realized, that even though today did not go as I had planned or wanted, it was a day to treasure. A day that I spent with the most precious gift God has entrusted to me.
Once I finally got him out of the tub, we settled into out nightly routine of lotion, pjs and story time. I love this routine, it makes me feel like this is just our little world. Something only we share together. Usually, Jax is asleep by the third book, but tonight, because he was too interested in touching each page, he kept himself awake. So I swaddled him up in his blankie, sang along to the radio and rocked him until he fell soundly asleep. He was precious and cuddly. I just sat there, rocking him and looking at him in amazement. Every now and then, and tonight was one of those nights, I have an epiphany; the realization that this is MY baby. I still cannot believe that he is my child and I am his Mommy.
These are the moments I want to capture. The crazy cranky days, the innocent playful bathtimes, and the sweetest sleeping baby.
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